I Explain Exactly Why I Ended Up In The ICU After Surgery

We catch you up on why the show name changes back to Ask When, then we get real about what recovery looks like when a “better hip” comes with a painful dislocated toe. We also share the full story behind landing in the ICU on a ventilator after surgery, plus what we’re doing next for school and support. 
• changing the podcast name back to Ask When and why it matters for finding the show 
• asking for help with professional podcast cover art and logo design 
• hip recovery update and how a bedbound injury dislocates a toe 
• deciding between Dysport injections and toe surgery for a contracted toe 
• the cost of repeated Botox style treatments versus a surgical fix 
• what leads to intubation, aspiration concerns, and time on a ventilator 
• failing a class twice, losing a spot at a university, and transferring to ASU 
• looking for a tutor and adjusting to an aide transition 
If there's any professional designers out there who know about podcasting, please help me. 
If anyone wants to help me, we can do it virtually. 

Transcript

Welcome Back And Podcast Changes

SPEAKER_00 0:00

Welcome to Ask When everyone. Formerly a different shaped heart. If you hear a noise in the background, that's not my noise. That's Danielle's noise. Because she's recording this mobile and she's got to tell me. But that's okay. The noise is okay. And welcome to life. Number one, welcome to life. Number two, welcome back, everyone. As you know, I took a little bit of hiatus after last episode. The podcast name has changed back to Ask When, because one, it's easier to find up a podcast. Two, um it's better to have Daniel's name on it, because she helps me with it. So that's why. And three, I put Diana Gabb sign in the mail because I found Diana Gabb sign as I was doing the design. So this is the next question. If there's any professional designers out there who know about podcasting, please help me. Please help me who know about podcasting cover art, please help me because I am a table designer. Graphic design is not my strong point. So can someone please nicely help us? And I'll pay you and uh do all that. But um I need a graphic designer to help me with the um ask when logo again.

Hip Progress And The Toe Injury

SPEAKER_00 2:02

But life update. Life update is this. The last time we talked, my hip, my hip, my hip. My hip is doing amazing. Now, you can laugh at me all you want, but during my hip extravaganza, when my leg was halfway well, was sideways and upside down, and I was bedbound completely for seven months. I had a bed attacking my foot. And what I mean by that is my foot literally got stuck in my mattress, and I mean stuck, like I couldn't pull it out to save my life. AIDS would have to put their full body weight because my toe was my foot was bent in the mattress, and my toe got spond of it. So needless to say, my toe is completely dislocated, my toe is now living on top of the other toe. It's swollen, it hurts every time a stick in the shoe, and it is not fun. Now,

Dysport Plan And Surgery Decision

SPEAKER_00 3:44

on July 9th, we uh we I am and yes, my aides will help me through this. I am getting Botox in my um excuse me, Discord, which is similar to Botox, it's uh it's in the family of Bauxite and Toxin, aka Botox. So Disport does the same thing as Botox. So when I say I'm getting Botox, I'm getting Botox. Now, for those of you who have never gone to a med bar and never had Botox, you don't know what the heck I'm talking about. Botox freezes muscles, tells muscles to calm down and tells the muscles to shut down, be calm, and take a jail bill for about I get it every three months, I believe. So take a jail pill for every three months. So we are shooting Botox and when I say shooting I mean big needles shooting Botox. These needles are so big and my doctor does not use numbing cream. You bet you bought an doll on asking her to use numbing cream on the top of my feet. Yes, we're shooting the Botox in my foot and seeing if muscles calm down and uncontract themselves so to speak. I mean my foot is my toe is dislocated slash it's contracted and so yeah. If not, if the Botox does not work, I yes, you can laugh at me all you want. I am having a little toe surgery, toe surgery, I said toe, not foot, I said toe. Toe surgery to uncontracted, put metal and screws and all that good stuff in my toe and make it better and make my walking more stable because right now I'm taking baby steps and it's awful, and so I will let you guys know when that surgery happens and if Botox works temporarily. But as I said, how the heck are we going to manage the problem several million times with a thousand dollars of disport? No thank you. And a copay of eight hundred dollars just to manage the problem. No thank you, and I would rather have surgical pain and rehab my foot and do that. Yes, it's another surgery. You're thinking

How Constipation Led To ICU

SPEAKER_00 7:50

you're thinking like everyone else, you're like when it's another surgery, when you don't do well with anaesthesia, when you don't do well in the recovery times of surgery. No, what really happened when I got intubated, when I got intubated the last time, um, what really happened was thank you medication to help me from surgery, but I didn't I didn't necessarily go to the bathroom on time. So then they got concerned about that. Yes, I know it's too much TMI, too TMI, too TMI, too TMI, but they got concerned about that. And because they were concerned about that, they would have left me alone had I not eaten the chocolate cake, which was really icky and tough, and it wasn't sweet at all, and it was stiff and tough and just hard to eat, and I said after I took one by I don't feel well, so on top of the treatment for my barrels, I stupidly ate hospital chocolate cake, and Adelaide sent me to intubation land, and I missed Thursday, and I was on the vent. So not necessarily the bowel program sent me to intubation land, but the chocolate cake and the barrel program and me not having doing what the bowel program is meant to do. And I because of the all the drugs they were giving me for my hamstring in my hip, so that's what sent me into constipation land slash it sent me in to let's get win on event. She's breathing heavy. The last thing I remember them saying to me, Awaken Alive, was that um if your stomach keeps going up and down, up and down, up and down, and the way you're breathing, your body's your heart will literally give up give out, and your body's going to give out. So that's why I screamed intimate me. That's why I send everyone in a wild goose chase and those who want their dress uh hissy fit about it because no one knew. No one knew it was mission critical, and they were calling my medical liaison, my medical liaison was calling my medical ballot attorney, it was mission critical, and yes, I did finally do what the what the bowel treatment was meant to do. Apparently I did it as soon as they intubated me before they put me in the ambulance, and apparently I got put in a lift, a hoy lift, and I don't even remember because I was knocked out, I was knocked out asleep. But what I've been told is when they went deep into my lungs to get aspiration, ickiness, aspiration, green chunks of green mucus, aspiration, mucus out. I kept saying, no more, no more, no more, no more, no more. And every time I kept saying that, they kept digging deeper and deeper into me. And apparently I wanted to pull the IVs out, and apparently I wasn't a happy campus, but they did it anyway, and so and they made my aid stay the whole time and help. And then apparently, I and I don't remember doing this either. I looked at and that this was in the ICU. I looked at my aid with a ventilator, mind you. I looked at my aid and basically said I want this dang ventilator out, and tried to pull the ventilator out myself. So that's my story and me on the vent. I know you guys were all curious of how I land upon the vent after ventilator or vent, as they call it in the medical world. Ventilator after my hip surgery, and why the heck did I land upon the vent after hip surgery? That's why. Because I didn't have a bowel movement, and I ate a piece of chocolate cake, which was not soft, it was tough, and I said to my aide, I don't feel well for that chocolate cake out, and that's what store admission critical on top of having every pill in the century to make me have a BM after surgery, and so in my system, and they were reversing, they were giving me shots to reverse the opioids. And so, on top of having opioids in my system that caused constipation, on top of me not having a BM, they were trying to make me have a BM, and I have gonna stupidly add tough chocolate cake on top of it, and so that's why it turned into mission critical. The chocolate cake didn't mean in. And so I figured I would tell you that story. What do we add? Six months out UP, because I figured when you when I said I landed on a vent, uh ventilator, that I was still in rehab, and now I'm brave enough to tell that story because I'm like my fan base probably wants to know why the heck did I land up in the ICU and on a much less and on a ventilated much less in the ICU. So I'm after I have replacement and I have string links in the so that's the story and sticking to it.

School Setbacks And Switching Universities

SPEAKER_00 15:48

Another life update. If that's too much, I failed my class for the second time. And so after my foot surgery, I said after my foot surgery, because I was taking glass and trying to have major surgery, that's not a good idea. And then I tried to take it again and begged for to Raoul Grand Canyon University, and then it didn't work. So after my surgery, I am going to try again, and then after my surgery, I am getting a tutor on my own, trying again, and successfully graduated from Arizona State University ASU because I'm expelled for years from the Grand Canyon University, and they told me that. So basically, because they didn't meet my needs, because I have a disability, I failed my class and then they expel me, and so I will be tracing over to ASU with the tutor this time. And so if anyone wants to help me, we can do it virtually. Those of you that are in Arizona, let me know. And I'm starting, I'm gonna start pounding the page and on Facebook and next door, and I'm gonna start pounding page and on Facebook and next door. Probably next week. Next week, yeah, exemption of the Monday. And exemption of Monday.

Aide Transition And Closing

SPEAKER_00 18:04

Monday I have a huge, huge, huge, huge transition happening in my life. And so good to vibe as I hope it goes successful. I am, well, technically, I am not losing one of my aides. She's just transitioning off my case for purposes that I can't tell you. And so, um she's still technically she's still on my case, she's just taking one day off. So yeah, we have that going on. I'm trying to decide suddenly. I'm also sick of being sick with my toe, and so yeah. So, anyway, Danielle will say what she always says. And Danielle, do you wanna lead us out? Thank you for following us, she says. And I will catch you guys later. We're back, and I will catch you guys later. Bye you guys.